So it's been a couple of days since I have been able to post anything. Nothing too exciting going on at the moment. just working, hanging out with friends, making new friends, living life. Slowly learning how lonely this living in my car thing can be.
The last couple nights after leaving friends houses and going to my parking lot. The drive gets me thinking and sitting in the parking lot waiting to fall asleep gets me thinking even more. Which I suppose is a good thing because it is giving me my motivation back for my writing. I actually found the guts to show some of my work to a good friend of mine and he liked it. Said there was a lot of potential into turning a couple pieces into songs. That would be pretty neat to me. I never really got into writing songs. I tried just once and I thought it was just sub par but apparently it was more than that.
Also on the subject, working with said friend to look over some of my older pieces and see if anything can be done with those which is pretty cool. I never had the nerve to really show my work to alot of people. But I feel so comfortable with it. And to get feedback on what I can work on and improve on will be good. Also to see if I can take anything in a new direction will be pretty awesome. Maybe some collaborative pieces will come about. I'm super psyched to get back into writing.
So to switch to another topic, the last couple of nights have been real chilly. It was time for me to pull another blanket out of my trunk but on a good note I figured out how to make myself more comfortable in my little car by putting a pillow over my shifter, I can extend my legs to the passenger seat and lay almost all the way out which is a nice change of pace from sleeping sitting straight up. This whole thing so far has been such a great learning experience. Lots of do's and don'ts to figure out. And as much info as there is on the web and in the library, reading about it definitely isn't the same as actually living it.
So hanging out with certain people has definitely taught me about how much patience I have and how much I can actually put up with. Learning who I enjoy hanging out with and who I put up with is certainly something else in its entirety. But the good thing is learning to have a lot of patience which will only help me in the long run. Sometimes trying to find the positive in each situation can be very exhausting. But I do believe everything happens for a reason from each experience good or bad, the people that you come across, thought that are had, every choice made.
People say that our life is predetermined. But that is nearly impossible considering every decision we make each day. From something as simple as which shirt to wear, which route to take to make it to your destination, to bigger decisions like moving, big purchases, the things we choose to pursue in our lives. We make our own decisions and we must put up with the consequences good or bad. We have no one else to blame but ourselves for our choices. I know this is definitely one of those practice what you preach type moments. But again it's just one of those learning experiences. I know I try to blame others sometimes for things I've done to myself but I am getting way better about that.
Well I think that's enough for tonight. I'm working on about 4 hours of sleep and my mind just can't focus on one topic. Maybe tomorrows will be much less scattered. I will have something to talk about tomorrow I'm sure considering there is gonna be some writing done tonight.
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