So it has again been awhile since I have posted in my blog. As I am sure many of you can relate life gets the best of us, and sometimes somethings just have to wait. Well that's exactly what has happened here. A lot has happened, lets see where do we start...the last time I actually posted the ins and outs of my present day life was back in July my goodness quite a bit has happened since then.
Well my Fourth of July was a bunch of fun, nothing to complain about there.I was living with my Bes Fran (yes, i spelled that correctly) and this chick I had met at a party once before I left for Massachusetts in the first place.Come to find out this chica has become one of my closest friends here in the great state of Michigan. She has taught me so many things and has been helping me grow in all her wisdom, positivity, and smiles. Soon after arriving in Kalamazoo my travel plans got thrown off track, it looked like it wasnt happening. Since then there have been many up and down with those plans. I'm looking at it right now as it was meant to happen and if it is, it will be in the future.
After that living situation which I was blessed with the offer to stay until the lease ended I moved in with another amazing friend for about a week. He is also a very wise person. He who had so much to offer, between him and some mutual friends I have never felt so much love from a group of friends. Soon after landing at couch city I received an offer to go to and stay in New York for a while, I thought Wahoo my travel plans are finally beginning. Nope they sure didn't, that option then was no longer available. Then the next day one of my friends roommates came home at 7 in the morning and started freaking out at me about something I did not do and whilst yelling at me and attacking me with names, I knew staying there was no longer an option so I got everything together and headed over to a friends where she helped me calm down from an anxiety attack.
I went about everything that I had to do that day and spent hours trying to figure out what I was going to do. Thus began the over thinking process and I started to freak out and have another panic attack. The last person that I thought would help me was the first to give me a roof over my head for the evening which turned into a place til I find a job. Which is more kindness than I could even think of asking for. I was ready to check into a shelter or sleep in public somewhere. Now I am blessed to have a roof over my head yet again and good company.
Even though my plans have changed drastically since the beginning. But i have come to see it as more of an internal journey and less of an external journey. I am finding out so much about myself. I am starting to become more self-sufficient which is great. I have learn to be a much kinder and more open minded person. I am so much less materialistic which is nice. Also being myself and learning who I am is a huge puzzle that I am slowly starting to figure out.
A huge thing that I have also learned is that I am not alone in anything that I do. That there is always someone there that is supporting me, always love and positive energy coming my way. There is always someone out there that I can talk to when I am having bad thought or going through a rough time. Whether they give me great advice, words of wisdom, or just listen to my situation and tell me they will be there for me gives me the extra strength that I sometimes need.
Another lesson is letting things be what they are. Sometimes we want to act on a thought or emotion but in the best interest of ourselves we hold back. To save ourselves emotionally or physically we just let things go be the bigger person and not say something back to a witty retort or wanting to act on other needs but knowing not to because it could screw up a perfectly good situation, sometimes this can be the hardest decision. And it is exhausting emotionally but it could be more emotionally detrimental if acted upon. Another big lesson I have learned over the years and am finally understanding.
Anyway I have learned so much in the last couple months about myself and others. All are lessons that I am grateful to have learned. I am also feeling so blessed to have met so many amazing people. Its mind blowing how many beautiful people are out there. So thank you to everyone!
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